She
hates
me.
The woman in 4B. I live in 2B. She wants my apartment. I’ve lived here for 50
years. My husband died here, and so will I.
She
hates me, the woman in 4B. She has three children under 10. Sometimes I see
them on the street. I take the stairs instead of the elevator. I’m 78. As long
as I can walk up the stairs I will walk up the stairs.
Our
apartments are the same, but not quite. They each have two bedrooms. But mine
has long hallways, hers doesn't. My halls are lined with bookcases; I don't
know where she
keeps her books. Her kitchen is smaller, her living room is bigger. But the two
bedrooms are why she hates me.
The
person who owns the apartment next to mine died. His wife doesn’t want to die
in the same apartment, she wants to sell. The woman in 4B thinks if she had my
apartment, she and her husband could buy the apartment next door and have lots
of bedrooms, lots of room for the three children. The boy is the oldest. The
girl is maybe seven, and there’s a new baby.
Her
husband sent an emissary, the real estate agent who lives in 2D. She said I had many opportunities: I could buy the
next-door apartment, put a door between them, rent to a roommate whose rent
would pay the extra maintenance, and I’d have another person who’d notice if
something went wrong with me. I’m old, after all.
Or
I could trade apartments with the family in 4B. The apartments are the same.
The fourth floor would have more light. The apartments are the same. I’d be
doing a good deed for that family. I don’t even know them, even though they
moved in two or three years ago. I take the stairs, not the elevator.
But.
But. But. I don't want to move.
She
hates
me.
I imagine her conversations with her husband. "What's wrong with the old
bitch? The apartments are identical. There's an elevator. She'd
have more light." And I wonder, why did they have a third kid when they
knew they only had two bedrooms?
But
the apartments are different. I love my long hallway.
I love my kitchen, which I renovated 10 years ago. Those two extra flights of
stairs might be good for exercise, but what about those times when my bladder
needs release as soon as I walk down the street to my building? I hate
potty talk, but at a certain age bodily functions become insistent. And most
important, my husband never lived in that other apartment layout. His memory
would get lost without the long hallway and bookcases.
I
tell her husband, no. I invoke my husband's spirit.
He's fine about it. But I know she
hates
me.
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I adore this story and I don't know you. It's fascinating this entitlement to be accommodated as if your needs (read wants) supersede those of others. The heart wants. Yours wants to have a three story climb, some lovely bookcases and the kitchen you chose. They will get over it... or not. I adore this story. It belongs with some others about this interesting woman.
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