I understand the context of this poem now, after reading the H post.I really don't know what to say. I just hope you learn to cope with the loss sooner than later. Take some time off for mourning and closure. Maybe you should go stay with your kids for a couple of weeks. Or with friends.
it's the unmoored that gets me the most.
Moment to moment feels okay, but whenever I want to tell Jack something, I become unmoored.