Tuesday, March 22, 2016

SOLSC Day 22: No Fun

This was not a good morning. Because of my spinal stenosis, I have some stretches to do before I get out of bed each morning. Today, as I swung my legs into the first stretch, I felt strong pain in my back. No bed lumbar twists this morning. I tried the standing twist, gingerly, but I couldn't feel the stretch nearly as well as I should.
            At my podiatrist appointment, I reported the tender spot under my second toe, and the podiatrist gave me a silicone “cushion” to wrap around the toe and lift it off the ground. In the office, it merely felt uncomfortable, which I put down to not being used to it. But after I left and walked a few blocks, the silicone device pressed more on the ball of my foot, causing pain and throwing my gait off.
            The upset I felt was partly because of the pain — but it was also because I knew, when I went home, there would be no Jack to rub my back and make it feel better, and no Jack for me to bounce off my feelings about the silicone device. I was overcome by sadness, and had to sit down on a bus shelter bench and cry. I’m not the kind of person who cries in public, and fortunately, no one stopped to ask if I was all right. And after a few minutes I was. Went home, took off the silicone, have sat with my back flat against my chair all afternoon.
            I will be all right, but aches and pains alone are no fun.


  1. I am so sorry you had such a bad morning....but even more that there would be no Jack. It sounds like you needed a good cry. I wish I would have passed by to see how you were doing....but then again, maybe it was best that you did this alone. I will keep you in my thoughts. I picked an animal card for you and the Swan showed up. Here is her message: Accept the gift of grace. Surrender to the flow. Don't give up. Give over.

  2. some of the Swan's message does resonate. Thank you.